Как избавиться от детских травм и себя принять?

The author is 17 years old and experiences significant difficulties with self-acceptance and self-hatred. She describes communication issues, including freezing, fear, and speech difficulties. She also mentions certain sexual interests that cause her disgust after arousal. She has intrusive thoughts about everyone wanting to manipulate her. She grew up in a traumatic family environment with a narcissistic father who was abusive toward her sisters, as well as constant gaslighting from her parents. She experiences eating issues, a racing heartbeat, severe fatigue, and struggles to form healthy relationships. She is seeking help to overcome childhood trauma, accept herself, and improve her quality of life.